Read Habbakuk 2
A grateful heart this morning. Using the prayer practice of the Ignatian Daily Examen, overwhelming gratitude. It is well with my soul. I have internalized the books, the acceptance and love of the people in my life, the sermons I have heard, the prayer times, time with my spiritual director, classes taking for spiritual direction, classes taught, the study/prayer times at the lake house and just the life experience. The culmination is this deep, deep experience of ……searching for the right word here…what resonates as true is peace. A deep experience of soul peace.
So back to the Daily Examen, the first part is a focus on gratitude, to express to God gratitude. Look over the previous day and find gratitude, moments, experiences, beauty, truth, joy; it is there and can become the authority of your thinking, and taken into your spirit. What do you give authority to, the things of God; truth, love, joy, justice; or the circumstances, emotions of what is outside you? It is a matter of what is given authority, what you will deem as truth for you, and it is done in your mind. It is the decision in your mind. OK so after time it becomes a habit, it becomes a sin to allow my mind to travel where God is not. Very easy, but something I want to confess and find forgiveness and accept healing. I want to live in the place in my mind of mercy, faith and ultimately love. Abiding, walking by Spirit, trying here to put words – I pray to be a better writer. The first part of The Examen in gratitude.
The next part of The Daily Examen is to ask to see where God was in your day. God shows me things that I would not have thought of, it takes patience to sit and wait. I am so wanting to inform my mind, but I can learn to wait on God; and it is always beautiful.
Ignatian instruction says God is seen in the movement of your emotions, not the surface emotions, but the spirit emotions. Just like we can see with our eyes, but we also can see with the eyes of our spirit; just as we can love with our surface heart, we can also love with our spirit heart; we can hear with our physical ears, and also we have spirit ears to hear; ok so also there are emotions of the soul. This is the hard part for me, sitting with my emotions, asking again to put a word to my soul emotion. What am I feeling in relation to this event? It used to be an emotion associated with fear, often even terror. I have confessed to God these emotions over the years; and found healing. I do not often experience terror anymore, and not as often fear. God is faithful and just and will heal if we confess to him. Ok so Ignation teaching says we can see God’s movement in our lives by our soul emotions, the emotions of the Spirit are his movement and then there is the world, our flesh and the you know the other one. You know who I mean right? Don’t allow that, make a decision, ask for God’s help, read Psalm 23. That is what sin is, walking in that direction in your mind, rather than God’s truth, his love, his kingdom established in your soul, ask for forgiveness, he waits to forgive you, cleanse you and set you free. Ok so I have sometimes to look at a list of emotions I have found, to find the one that resonants in my soul/spirit I know it when I find it. When I find it I either do the above, or sit in the beauty of it, like today; beauty, peace, love, joy, gratitude.
And the final movement of the exam is to sit in prayer. I sit in contemplative centering prayer lately. Holding those who come to my heart, in my heart, where my God is. I do not feel the need for words, just hold them there and wait for the next one to come to me. Then to follow the Ignatian guide I ask God for a prayer focus, and I put words to that the focus given, usually a person.
OK that is enough for today. Blessings. I love you, go in peace today. It is well with your soul.